It's 2:30.

I just posted a blog a little while ago, but I went reading through old blogs that friends have written, and well, I have something to say.

Taylor, I've known you for what seems to be forever. I'd probably be out whoring for crack right now if it weren't for you and a few other people, but that's beside my purpose in writing this. You're one of my dearest friends, and I'm so so so so sorry that I don't really answer you on AIM, that I'm a critical jackass, I talk out of my ass half the time, and every other way I seem to be able to wrong you. You've never ever gotten mad at me (not to the point where there's been a problem), and I can't ever thank you enough for all the crap you've put up with for me, and all my bitching you've had to sit through. I know that I do tell you these things, but it never seems to be enough, and I'll never be able to express how grateful I am to have you as a friend, no fuck that, a best friend. And, I don't care what the word "best" means; you can have more than one. So, fuck you, English Language, SMD. Yeah, I stole that one from you, Tay. I'm sure you'll probably never read this because you don't use this anymore, which I guess, is a good thing because it means you either have ways to vent when you have problems, or you don't have problems to talk about.

I'm really not sure why I wrote this, but to be honest, I think you're one of few people who I try so hard NOT to take for granted, which is why I try to tell you that I appreciate all the things you do for me.

I just. I don't know. You're amazing, and you're one of my best friends in the whole wide ever. Yeah, I said it like that on purpose.

I love you.

Yeah, wow.

Holy shit.

What the hell is wrong with people and their use of the internet?

Profile pictures are Pokemon?

Oh, and that whole "group" thing got old fast. There's even a group now that's called, "I Join Too Many Groups Because I Look At Them And Say, 'OMG. THAT'S SO TRUE!'"

Gosh. What have we become?

On a side note, look at how every idea is separated with a big space!

Oh, and Merry Christmas. I love all of you. :] <3

Really, life?

I thought we had a deal. Take everything. But, not this.

Another, for the road.

Things are kind of weird right now. I'm not even sure why I'm writing.

It's amazing how one email can completely knock me on my ass and hit me where it hurts, regardless of how old the email is.

As the days pass, I'm starting to see the huge differences between runner me, and lazy college me.

Knowing what I do now, your last few blogs make me want to cry, a lot. If you understand this, please. Don't ever hesitate to bug me for anything. I'll be here.

Just 10 minutes alone, and I see all the bad. I lose sight of all the good.

Now, as I cough myself into oblivion, all I can do is stare at the wall, and play with my tech deck.

Sometimes, I hate that I save things.

You want to know the saddest thing I've ever read?

"no pain no hurt, no sorrow, no hate, no longing, no love. nothing"

It's past, but I still remember.